"See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?" - Isaiah 43:19
Two thousand nine promises to be a year of adventure. Like going over a waterfall in a barrel. The outcome may be good or bad. Or both. But certainly different.
New year, do your worst.
The weatherman says goodnight
The empire state building's turning of its lights
The refrigerator stops
And suddenly it's quiet
I never noticed the ceilings were so low
I never saw all the cracks on the window
I never saw myself as sentimental
But here I go
Without you
I've been standing round here like a statue
Laying on the floor thinking about you
I talk to myself like the crazies do
Otherwise I'm great
What about you?
Ain't nothing going on here but the rent
I can't account for how my days are spent
I wanna draw the line between who I am
And who I invent
The weatherman says blues skies but it's raining
Like the clouds all decided to cry
And every time you hurt me I say
“It's alright
it's alright
it's alright”
Without you
I've been standing round here like a statue
Laying on the couch all day like cats do
Waiting for the phone to ring
But it won't ring
Without you
Statue - Low Millions
I found this entry in an old journal.
10-7-05
"So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them." - Genesis 1:27
"The LORD God said, 'It is not good for the man to be alone.'" - Genesis 2:18
What I value in relationships:
devotion
to be known
to be appreciated for my good qualities
that my presence be desired
stimulating communication
not being humored or placated
honesty no matter what
Do I have these desires because I am shaped like You? And do You have the same ones?
I'm really good at talking myself out of bad decisions. Not so great at listening.
Sometimes the truth cuts like a knife. But I would rather let it skin me alive than hold the warm hand of a lie. I want the pain. I want the healing. I want the scars.